Friday, August 18, 2006
i dont understand. we were two parallel lines going to the same direction, but now, we are heading towards each other. a huge clash , and we are moving on towards opposite ways. i think its a ripple effect. one event after another, one hurt after another, one incident follows another. it goes on and on, and its penetrating deep into my heart and it lays there oppresively like a huge mountain i cant move. and it makes me feel very d, just to think about it. i think it caused my fuse to blow.this mortification, makes me worry.
why does god test me in this area time and time again. havent i placed my trust in him each time? and each time, i fall into this malicious pithole, oh how i wish i will get out of it soon. show me the light, will ya, my dear dear father.
the things that will follow, will be like unprecendented waters. and whether i will sail through it or have a stormy meet, i do not know. i really dont wish for it to come. but i just wish, the storm will quickly pass, so that the scene after the storm will give me peace and serenity.
sometimes i wonder whom i can depend on, who will be here for me, and which of my friends can really lift me up from the depondency. genuinity, thats all i ask for. please be ever so true to me. and a thousand pleas.
chen chen painted at 11:31 PM
