wahhhhhhhh. countdown to exam. ONE MORE WEEK!!!!
-pulls hair out madly
no time left! i better start studying. blehhhhh.
ashikin, mimi and all PP ppl please study harrrrd!! :)
and it keeps raining, keeps pouring, keeps flooding.
drown my worries and let me ride on calm waters.
if worry is like a rain drop.
the water vapour is just like the nitty gritties that slowly builds up to form a worry.
this worry carries on with us making us go downhill.
like free falling from the sky.
we are afraid to fall and hurt ourselves when we hit ground.
the future may seem unsure.
we may seem to be lonely.
but the fall will be the only way to allow us to let go.
the raindrop eventually finds its friends among the rainwater and continue to flow together as one.
:)
dont worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry for itself. one day has enough worries of its own.
chen chen painted at 10:01 PM
on my bus ride home, i felt a sense of uplifting in spirit. haha, as i reflected upon my life, im just glad that god has really provided a way out in everything. really everything. if i had the time, i will really list them out one by one in the near future. and the apprehension that i really love this father of mine, because i think back and recognise the fact that he has blessed me alot in my studies, my family and many other aspect in my life. he's been a great god and i pray that i will continue to love him this way :)
sometimes it may be hard to not be so bogged down by the nitty gritty details or the discouragements we face daily, nonetheless, i wanna have an open mind and heart. i must get out of solving the same issues in the ppl's life with the same spiritual maturity but grow myself and grow up in thinking and leading. since we are at our most mouldable age, the period we adapt most quickly, i guess its time for growth and stoutheartedness. i wanna be more steady in handling issues. unwavering and not easily shaken by the environment. i need to be STRONG! :D
i want to impact lives not just through what people SEE, but i wanna build deeper relationship with the people around me so that its not just a superficial impact but a substantial one because they see a transformation and a character growth in me.
although i may not seem serious half the time, always joking and doing spastic actions, and i still fall into normal human's temptation and sins, i will try to be more mature. HAHA. but the same spastic me will be there. and so will my funny jokes. LOL. my jokes are funny okayyy.
chen chen painted at 11:56 PM
if you ask me, i will say, sometimes many things you do or say, do hurt me in one way or another but you just dont seem to know.
just the words, or the lack of it, causes such ripples in my heart.
i do wish that someone can whisk me off to a whimsical land where i dont have to take heart into such disappointments.
i dont understand you know, why it always seem to be me playing the bad guy trying to do my best here but it just doesnt get to you. it just doesnt. and its starting to get into me.
you never understood my intentions and i wonder when you will ever.
its okay you dont understand but please try to be more understanding. im not having an easy time either.
im just dissapointed that im unable to impact you in the measure i wanted to. im just tireeeeed. and i guess its during this ill moment, i just need a warm little hug. maybe a spiritual loving touch too?
im praying for a breakthrough.
chen chen painted at 1:39 PM
hahaha, time for update.
last cg with the yj girls 23 november 2006 thursday
we drew this... errrr, caricature? hahaha. :) i miss the yj girls already.
this is the CG NEE1!!! heee.
our fav "mansei" pose! :D
during this last cg together, we just shared about one another for 3 hours straight. the sisterhood is so amazing and the bonds we have will not be broken :) i love my girls.
then MCG was the bbq at east coast park on 24 november friday
so apparently, we celebrated kat's bday! HAPPY BDAY KAT! and i had to act a good show of being emo to bring her to her surprise later on. she was shocked to realise it was all acting that she smashed the nice cake onto my face! thanks kat. hahahaha.
so apparently, we celebrated kat's bday! HAPPY BDAY KAT! and i had to act a good show of being emo to bring her to her surprise later on. she was shocked to realise it was all acting that she smashed the nice cake onto my face! thanks kat. hahahaha.
wah. unglamnessssss. why am i so dark. the choc cake like same color already. bleh. HAHA.
yay! the group!! we are suppose to be filled with cake all over. but it doesnt show here!
then sat was SL!!!
class 34! ahh, crap. i look spastic.
some collages of our SL :)
and this is amalina! primary 2!! she still smses me now! haha . like everyday she sms me " how are you? " " what are you doing" superrrrr cuteeeeeeeeee. -swoons.
this is ali!! always fighting with amalina and teasing her. he is a cute dude toooo!
do you see a loving hug there? awwww.
and thats a fine example of assault. hahahaha. eve! stop forcing yourself on them la!! they are unwilling parties. LOL!!
my fav girl :) so sad it has all ended.
then after that chionged to service! and after that we were shopping for mis match!!!
i think really very mismatch la. hahaha
OH!! and i met my bumblebee boy!! SO ADORABLE RIGHT! wearing a bee suit!! aww. then he was winding around the legs of the adults. like a beeeee!
thats for now folks!!! :D
chen chen painted at 8:11 PM
