hmmmm my dad's been asking me to learn driving recently. anyone wanna learn with me ? :D
okay, maybe at least take the highway code first. lol. i cant imagine myself driving; but then.... why not larrrxxxXxx!
anyway, today was one of the worst days but as we always say, we gotta look forward! and i realise i become VERY sanguine especially after having a bad day in school. -prances about-.
but then, truth is, im feeling pretty mel and sick. ahhh, nevermind. life's gotta move on and i know god will be there for me. haha.
chen chen painted at 9:54 PM
woahh alot of pictures up :)
hahah , we went to take photos of urban buildings, but ended up with more photos of ourselves. LOL .
lovely ppl : D
ahh, my personal favourite. i kinda like the colors in this picture hahaha.
me and MIMI!!! hottest hockey babe. hahahahaha.
sorry for my lame face. i look really stupid. haha.
me and eve!!
just look at eve!!! HAHHAHA. ( okay dont kill me eve. :P)
hehehe.
then we met a couple taking photoshoot. so i took this. kinda like the blurry effect. and the nice clarkequay scene at the back. sweeeet.
hhohohoho, then me and jas were just being spastic. cute la.
me and ashikin darling!! haha. pretty pretty!
okayyyy, theres still alot of photos. but im lazy to upload already. hahah.
the day i went shopping with geoky!!! she is so nice to shop with cos she's so patient!i love you babeh!
CHANTEL! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
hehehe.
then we met a couple taking photoshoot. so i took this. kinda like the blurry effect. and the nice clarkequay scene at the back. sweeeet.
hhohohoho, then me and jas were just being spastic. cute la.
me and ashikin darling!! haha. pretty pretty!
okayyyy, theres still alot of photos. but im lazy to upload already. hahah.
the day i went shopping with geoky!!! she is so nice to shop with cos she's so patient!i love you babeh!
CHANTEL! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
chen chen painted at 2:42 PM
I didn't go to school today due to my weak immune system. haha. Apparently, i m allergic to something at home that i dont know. hahaha. just realised i havent developed rashes before until i came to JC. wierd. the funniest thing is that i recover as soon as im not at home. ( maybe i should use that as an excuse to go out more often) HAHA. and anyway im fine already. but still coughing. yeahs, gonna get well soon :)
i just realise that maybe i have slowly led myself to feel this way. like an emotional attachment; but its inexplicable. my heart and mind and body is detached whenever i meet you. they dont work congruently. this obscure feeling is just perplexing. maybe, just maybe, im starting to feel -
something.
chen chen painted at 8:49 PM
bad bad bad cramps :((((
had a hard time running during pe. sigh.
but anws im a happier girl going to school cos i absolutely adore my friends. not the hw/test/tutorials/lecture. plus tuesdays i got 5 hours break. total waste of time. i rather not have the break and go home much much earlier. :/ haiyer, okays, vector tutorial awaits me. like mr lim says if we dont do we dont have to go his lesson already. i think i've been taking his leniency for granted thats why all my jc life i never do maths. okays, geek in action.
pictures another day, cause i have no energy lol.
chen chen painted at 9:09 PM
god speaks. intangible; but felt and learnt.
when we focus too much on ourself, our problems will seem overwhelming.
look to god and our problem will be so much smaller.
when you look at all the things in your hands, work may seem like a chore. but when you appreciate and comprehend the impact the things you do have on others, its no longer work, but an honour to be serving others. because doing god's work is worth it.
the answer is actually very simple: when you love god and put him first, everything will fall in place. if he brings it to you, he will bring you through it.
when you are overly serious with your work, work becomes a chore, which becomes stress and it results in giving yourself an excuse for escapism.
life is very simple. dont complicate things, dont get excessively worried, trust in your maker and start looking outwards and you wont keep dwelling in your own problems.
love life, loveeee ppl. :)
chen chen painted at 12:38 AM
sometimes the things i do , i dont expect you to fully understand
but i pray that you would see it someday.but i realise you never did understand my intentions. and it hurts me more than you know. in a relationship, it takes 2 to make it work out. when you are happy, im estatic for you too. when you are depressed im ever ready to share your troubles ( but whether at the end of the day, you share to me is a different story) and when you didnt, you have absolutely no idea how it feels to be in my shoes. when im the only one giving to this relationship, it wont work out and you will never know how weary i feel. the feeling of giving but being misunderstood. im tired. there are times im perplexed and at a lost. but nothing i do seems to make you see things the way i do. its hurts deep down but i dont show it because i know i cant let my emotions affect others. and precisely the fact that you mean this much to me enables me to press on and not give up. yes, i wont give up on this relationship even if im tired. you mean alot to me and i will continue loving you the way i do even if it means hurting myself more than it does to you. people just dont see the full picture and they are quick to judge. and then i become the antagonist. the reason i dont explain myself all the time is because its my responsibility. so i understand if they blame it on me. but i sometimes wonder if anyone really knows the whole situation. do you even see it from my point of view? sometimes we just dont fully comprehend the things others are going through because we are too focused on ourselves. one thing im learning; stop looking to myself but outwards and upwards.
its gods love that overflows from the heart and that allows me to love you. tonight its just you and me, my dear father. im praying for a release too. not just one party that suffers but all sides too. i understand that.
a silent prayer for your comprehension,
a quiet whisper that i will never mention:
my love notion;
unspoken, but all action.
Not by magic potion
nor given with caution
but with reckless motion.
this is my love, not persuasion
this is our love, not just a sensation
this is the love, on every occasion.
cant believe im that emo to write a poem.
currently listening to : what goes around - justin timberlake.
chen chen painted at 12:18 AM
so the day started out, well b-o-r-i-n-g. haaaha. i went to math lecture like half an hr late. and its a 3 hr lecture. almost died. i left the complex numbers lecture feeling more complexed than ever okay.
im glad for the time spent yesterday evening with these darlings. i still remember the ex neb days. thats like when i was sec 2-3 . by the way, where are you ah xiaoting?!?!!? missing in action. -waves madly to phuas. and jiayi is like busy busy girl. anws it was a great time of catching up and we caught the movie, Happily Never After. hahahahaa, its better than expected, so luannie, its not thaaat bad afterall. LOL. then we went shopping! and i bought a nice comfy flats. or whatever it is. hahahaa! maybe i do have a girly taste. but its alrite! lol.
anyways, im a happy girl maybe because i finally got my hands on a camera! -cheers.
haha. the sony cybershot is so worth it! its like only $399 for a 7.2 megapixels. awesome! and i spent only another $25 for a 1 GB memory card! wah, makes me wanna go :DDD and im still fiddling with it and playing around.
but i dont feel good. i cant stop coughing and i know im getting sick. but i dont wanna !! i've got so much i wanna do this shortshortshort holidays. :/// by the way, i think im gonna have a busy busy week.
tues- steamboat with cg peeeeeeps at marina bay!
wed- metamorphosis event.
thurs- geog lecture, math tut, cca.
friday- FREEEEEEEE! -wheeees. ( shopppping/movie anyone?!!?!?)
sat- church
sun- chiong hw. hahahahaha.
kkkkkk, pictures below. smile for the camera!
me and luannie being spastic :o
wyns me luan
prettypretty wynnie. :)))
me and luannie!! :)
the hongkong cafe we went
this the po lo pao. bo lo bao? okay i dunno.
and i ordered this. :)
hahaha the end. :D
hahaha the end. :D
chen chen painted at 12:12 PM
overdue-ededed pictures. :)
birthday pictures. hahahahaaha. the day they came to surprise me with sparkles, candles and cake! lol. all the photos are kinda unglam cos i was caught unprepared by these sweeeet girls. HAHA.
circle of tidm.
some dumb pose. HAHAHA.
me eve!
me jas!
and just another random pictures. my favourite favourite boy matthew. adorable!!!
this is how the conversation went. sth like that:
zw: hey mat!
mat: ah?
zw: i read my blog! what happened? who is the unknown person???!?! :'(
mat: oh, hahaha. ITS ME LAA.
zw: WHATT? you made me so sad la! irritating!
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zw: are you sure its you?dont make me happy only.
mat: i sound so hero right?haha. (he meant the comment he made after the unknown comment)
....................... hahahaha. i was seriously sad la, i thought someone hates me. michelle says im overly anxious. LOL. tell me whats new.
anyway, today was the day the j3s receive their results. the whole atmosphere was really tense, and i was actually nervous for them altho i was busy rushing my lit test. HAHA. then came the results. smiles, tears, frowns, laughters, sobs. sometimes we are just lost for words of comfort because we don't know what else we can do for the person. all we can give is our shoulders and probably a listening ear. and to all those who did well, congratulations!
but after today i left school with heavy heart. the very next year will be my turn. well, i can remain nonchalant but i feel a stirring in my heart today. im so so so afraid what the results will be. the future seems almost too bleak and i'm not strong enough to face it.
so zhiwei has made the decision to study hard. after turning a new leaf and not being late too many times this term, she is gonna start doing her homework! and then as the momentum builds up hopefully she can be a good influence to her classmates and the whole class will learn from the role model ( LOL!!!) . hahahaha. lets work hard okay 34? :)
yup, so everyone must learn from me and start studying hard yea? hahahaha!
chen chen painted at 6:24 PM
