Sunday, August 06, 2006
ive been thinking.
i dont want things this way.
lets get it right this time.
im not gonna let it get into the way.
you know, in times like this, there is bound to be hurt.
i just dont want it to come.
or maybe i dont wanna face the reality of this issue.
so real, so surreal, something only i know.
( these are just my random thoughts and its okay if you dont understand)
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that
I've been dreaming of?
keane- somewhere only we know
i just watched lakehouse yesterday.
its a great show and a must watch.
you know,
when love can withstand time
when love goes beyond skin deep
when love can wait
when love can stop time
its only somewhere only we know.
and i realised i have gotta be a better blogger and improve my english. what say you.
Vanity can be considered as one of man's greatest sins. vanity, is an inordinate desire to show off your talents and your achievements. it comes in many forms, often hiding behind a veil of an almost innocuous front. some people wish to achieve riches and glory beyond what we can even handle and that leads to vanity.vanity for power, status, fame makes people yanker over wealth that inevitably changes their character to be money driven, achievement driven. would we really like that? would we want our family, friends and loved ones leave us one by one although in exchange we get all the riches of the world? being able to command and order huge masses, and able to change the culture of society but still, dont get the fufilment you wish to get. the emptiness and isolation due to vanity must be unbearable. no amount of fame or societal status can fill that hole in our heart. vanity also comes in the form when we value so much of how others look at us. questions we ask ourselves; are we slim enough? are we ever pretty enough? are we smart enough? will they accept me if i do this and that? acceptance versus abandonment. our constant struggle to gain acknowledgement and impress others to feel belonged. and abandonment would mean alienation from the rest of the world. sometimes we can say its silly, but think about it, dont we all go through the same thing? you can deny all you want, but lets have a reality heart check. you can run away from your struggles and still be gasping for survival, you can hide your emotions but you will still feel them, you can put on a false front and think that noone knows but god knows. god sees, hears, feels but he doesnt reject us. god knows our inner desires, struggles, abhorrence towards people and things and he longs to bring us out of all these negative emotions. he is there to carry us through the tough times, to be our companion in our isolation, to be our shoulder to cry on, to be the leader of our lives, to be the one we can hold on to and he never lets go. never. we may push him away, we may hide from him, and he feels the hurt but he never leaves us. he never abandons us just because we arent good enough for him and he never leaves us to fend for ourselves. vanity may be a malicious pithole we have dug for ourselves but in that endless deep dark hole, god is there to push us out of it, if we allow him to. its time to hear from him, its time to feel him and time to talk to him.
this feels good. i should do it more often.
chen chen painted at 2:19 PM
