Tuesday, September 05, 2006
im a good girl .
(okay abit no link to what im gonna say next. but nonetheless, I AM!)
well, this hasnt exactly been my week. like honestly speaking, kinda been having traumatic experience recently.
just yesterday, i got knocked by a car.
i remember crossing the road, then when i turned to the left, i saw the car coming towards me.
all i know was that
i heard a loud BANG! and i screamed really loudly.
and there wasnt anyone around me.
the impact was pretty great at first, couldnt walk,
so i limped my way to the side of the road.
limp limp limp....
passerby motorist : " ni bei che zhuang? ( you are knocked by a car?) "
me : " uhhhhhh. ya. "
-dont really know where he went. okay, not impt.
so i was half squatting, under the tree and my knees were giving way. i was calling eve frantically on the phone. i din know what to do was really lost for the moment.
driver (the one who hit me) : "are you hurt?"
me : -looks at him ( isnt it obvious im hurt? )
driver: " why you cross the road when its red light?"
me : " no! its green man!"
and it really was green man, but that road ( the road near aj, and yck mrt) allowed vehicles to turn in when the green man is flashing as long as there isnt ppl.
driver: -mumbles something
me: -walks away feeling frustrated.
i really was lost, am i suppose to scream at him? take down the car plate number and demand for doc fees? cry on the spot cos im all alone? sit there and brat? demand for my parents to come back from hk?
haiyer i couldnt even decide. i just walked on and on and on. holding back the tears, supressing the anger.
thank god eve was on the phone with me.
thanks eve :)
the whole bus ride home made me think alot.
life's really just like that. you really dont know what might happen to you the very next year, month, week, day, hour, min, second. but i really thank god for protecting me. likehello? how did i even walk out of it? im still amazed. :D
sometimes circumstances forces you to be stronger than you really are. but i guess its all a growing process. if i stay feeble and weak hearted i would have broken down and not know what to do. :/
lifes really fragile and i can no longer take it lightly. i have to take control of my life and not let life lead me instead. psle, o's, mid's , promos, A's has always been taxing and emotionally draining on everyone and if i just let that dictate my life and how i should lead my life ( just mug mug mug) then if i do die one day, my life would be full of regrets. just wanna learn to take control of my life and not screw it. :)
but of course, im only human, i called ashikin and while talking to her, i started crying. i guess i was still in shock. but im fine now! thanks ashikin :))
my left arm hurt. it feeels so much weaker now and it aches.maybe i strained it. but i think i will just rest more and i think it will heal. haha.
chen chen painted at 11:48 PM
