Wednesday, March 14, 2007
sometimes the things i do , i dont expect you to fully understand
but i pray that you would see it someday.but i realise you never did understand my intentions. and it hurts me more than you know. in a relationship, it takes 2 to make it work out. when you are happy, im estatic for you too. when you are depressed im ever ready to share your troubles ( but whether at the end of the day, you share to me is a different story) and when you didnt, you have absolutely no idea how it feels to be in my shoes. when im the only one giving to this relationship, it wont work out and you will never know how weary i feel. the feeling of giving but being misunderstood. im tired. there are times im perplexed and at a lost. but nothing i do seems to make you see things the way i do. its hurts deep down but i dont show it because i know i cant let my emotions affect others. and precisely the fact that you mean this much to me enables me to press on and not give up. yes, i wont give up on this relationship even if im tired. you mean alot to me and i will continue loving you the way i do even if it means hurting myself more than it does to you. people just dont see the full picture and they are quick to judge. and then i become the antagonist. the reason i dont explain myself all the time is because its my responsibility. so i understand if they blame it on me. but i sometimes wonder if anyone really knows the whole situation. do you even see it from my point of view? sometimes we just dont fully comprehend the things others are going through because we are too focused on ourselves. one thing im learning; stop looking to myself but outwards and upwards.
its gods love that overflows from the heart and that allows me to love you. tonight its just you and me, my dear father. im praying for a release too. not just one party that suffers but all sides too. i understand that.
a silent prayer for your comprehension,
a quiet whisper that i will never mention:
my love notion;
unspoken, but all action.
Not by magic potion
nor given with caution
but with reckless motion.
this is my love, not persuasion
this is our love, not just a sensation
this is the love, on every occasion.
cant believe im that emo to write a poem.
currently listening to : what goes around - justin timberlake.
chen chen painted at 12:18 AM
